I’ve been wondering what the heck is wrong with me this week. I’ve been supposedly on vacation but rather than enjoying some ‘me’ time I’ve been busy every day. That’s fine except that I’ve been very grumpy and resentful about it. The grumpier and more resentful I became, the more I ate. The more I ate, the busier I got. I finally had to ask myself who or what I was so resentful of. Just who was it who was expecting me to do everything? Certainly not Rick (my husband) and there isn’t anyone else in the house. I had to face the fact that it was myself that I resented.
I’m sure all of us have heard those people who claim that overweight people are lazy and have no willpower. All they need to do is stop eating and exercise. What’s so hard about that? I know this seems like I’m changing the subject, but bear with me. Have you ever secretly agreed with them in some part of your mind? I mean, why can’t I stick to my plan? Why am I choosing to eat stuff I shouldn’t, eat more than I should, not exercise enough? Am I just lazy, lacking willpower? Am I trying to prove otherwise when I go from one task to another? Look at me, look how busy I am. If I do this and this and this, then how could anyone claim I’m lazy? But no one is claiming I’m lazy except me.
Why is this so hard? All I have to do is stop eating stuff I shouldn’t and exercise more. Right?
Donna – my “comment” was becoming so long that I started a new post. Thanks for getting me thinking about this.