This, of course is just another phrase for discombobulation. At the end of October I wrote:
The tidal motion of hormones is something I’d better get used to. When I take the time to pay attention to what’s going on with my body and my emotions then I come through the storms pretty much unscathed. But those weeks when I’m already stressed by work and the husband does something which may be just a little annoying and the kids don’t phone – or they do phone and they NEED me – well, that’s when my “crazy head” runs all over the place screaming that the ship is going down – swim for your lives!
I guess I should listen to myself sometimes.
Is life stressful right now? yes
Is the hormone wave threatening? yes
Is Christmas looming? yes
Can I control the weather? no
Can I bring Dad back for Mom? no
What can I control? Well there’s a good question.
I can eat well. I can drink more water – yes, I mean expensive bottled mineral water. I can do a couple of the things that are on my list. I can accept that I can’t do everything. I can “live life lightly” till this moment passes.
So how do I make decisions when I feel so indecisive? I guess I can take a deep breath and do something. Then I can smile at my ineptitude if it doesn’t all work out perfectly.
I need to go easy on myself but in the right ways…….this is turning into another post.