I’m feeling a bit depressed which is not the same as being a bit depressed. I’m just feeling low and needing motivation and energy. I’m getting through my days like a very slow pinball wandering from task to task doing a little at each place but lacking the focus to get down to anything for very long. So I’m giving into it and declaring it Pinball Day today.
One of the things I’ve been doing is reading through all the posts on here and I found this:
It’s not too often in life that we get to WANT something and simply go get it because it doesn’t involve negotiating with loved-ones, market conditions or budgets. This requires negotiating with my self, my history, my emotions and anxieties and so the Talking It Off continues.
I need to re-state that for today:
- It’s not often in life that we get to WANT something and simply Go GET IT.
- This thing we want doesn’t require negotiating with loved ones.
- It doesn’t require money.
- It does require negotiating with my self,
- my history
- my emotions
- my anxieties
- my everyday life
- So I’m going to keep on coming here to do just that. Talking It Off.
So what do I want?
What are those things that I can go out and get just by negotiating with my self?
OK. Name them. In no specific order:
~I want to step in the scale one morning in the next couple of months and weigh under 140 pounds.
~I want to stay around that weight for a whole year despite the ups and downs of my bizarre transcontinental life.
~I want to rejoice and be thankful no matter where I’m living.
~I want to improve my fitness.
~I want to live life lightly.
It’s a start.
Thank you, Millie. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Looking at this in a new way could be what helps get me out of my slump. To have something because I want it, and NOT have to pay for it or argue with someone else about it, seems deliciously selfish! I mean that in the good way. I’ve always had a bit of a selfish streak, so maybe this is where I can embrace that. I WANT this. I can HAVE it. And the only person in my way is me. That’s where the negotiation comes in.
Ok, Millie, it didn’t take long for me to embrace this idea and figure out how to make it work for me. Sometimes I feel like I haven’t had an original thought of my own, but only ever start with someone else’s ideas! Battle-weary, that’s me…