In life in general I love the idea of new beginnings, blank slates, amnesties, jubilee years – grace and forgiveness .
When I decide to give myself one of those in my food/body struggles, it’s hard not to think of it as a whole new beginning. Over on BCB I’ve re-invented myself a few times, changing my board name and starting from scratch.
But this time I’m going to prize the accumulated wisdom of this past year. I’m going to view the next phase as just that: one leg of a long journey.
I’ve made a new daily weight page to see how long it takes to get from where I am now to where I want to go. I’m not guessing how long that’s going to be – I’m just going to set out and accept that I’ll get there when I get there. I’ll keep track of my behaviour and my weight and notice the connections. In fact, I think I might go a bit Bridget Jonesish and put my weight and other pertinent information at the top of each post. Maybe not.
My first priority is to fight my natural inclination and to plan meals ahead for a couple of days.
Oh this is boring. I feel so incredibly uninspired. And yet. And yet there is a solid core of WILL inside me that won’t rest until I have kept that promise to myself. I will give myself a chance to be slim and fit for a whole year. I will do it.
I may not feel like going through the process of getting there. I may not feel like going through the process of staying there. But I will do it with no rush of enthusiasm because I know how important it is that I do it.
Self-talk. What blogging is really all about.
Apologies to anyone else reading this today.
But if you want to join me on this leg please step in and keep me company on this enthusiasm-free, wisdom and (hopefully) humour filled process. I’ll make you a weight page of your very own if you are craving a little public accountability.
me! me! i do i do!! (you already knew that, right?)