Written January 25, 2010: There is no doubt in my mind–my depressed mind–that sometimes there is nothing more delicious and luxurious than wallowing in depression. Give in to it! Curl up under a “blankie” and do nothing but watch TV, play on the computer, read, and eat, all day long. Call it a mental health [...]
27Feb10
The New Normal is Abnormal
“Normal” these days for many many women is being on the non-stop pendulum of weight loss and weight gain. I don’t know very many people who are overweight and happy with who they are. I also don’t know many people who have taken weight off once and for all. So abnormal- as in unhealthy – [...]
25Feb10
Return of the Scale Insanity
I was going to write today that I felt lucky to be having a good week – not so much good, as EASY. An easy week is one where I just don’t feel overly hungry but I do feel like getting out and moving. And I consider it lucky because I can’t for the life [...]
24Feb10
And Results of Choices
This afternoon I went for a run rather than blog because: the sun peaked through the clouds I had journalled to point that I realised there was nothing left for a glass of wine I actually felt like exercise. (Please don’t get excited – this doesn’t happen very often) Or the right planets aligned. Because [...]
24Feb10
Choices
Today I have enough time to choose between writing here or going for an unplanned walk. As it’s not raining and I don’t have a lot of pressureful work hanging over me, I think a walk is the better choice for today. I don’t know who is inhabiting my body but they are welcome to [...]
23Feb10
More Body Image
I hate to spend so much time worrying or even wondering about what I look like but I know that really grasping the difference between me fat and me thin will help me to keep this weight off. So what do I know now? I know how much I weigh and I know how tall [...]
22Feb10
Body Image
I have a little theory about body image that I’ve never written down before and here it is: Women (and men?) have an image of themselves based on one or two body parts that concern them. One rare day when the husband had joined me on a shopping trip I stepped out of a changing [...]
20Feb10
More on “Results Are Typical”
My Weight Watchers career is like a motorway car crash. I know I don’t really want to see it but I can’t resist looking and today I saw written evidence of much of my UK WW “wreck” . Ready? They don’t have my 1995 card but they do have records for 1998, 2000 and 2003. [...]
19Feb10
Cruising
I’m cruising. Inside my head I am ready to lose the “last” 7 pounds. I’m not calling it my goal because I don’t know what it will be like once I get there. Will it be too hard to stay there? Will I be too thin? Will I not be thin enough? So many questions. [...]
17Feb10
40 Days
My very best Lent was back in the early 90s when I gave up guilt. I decided to be conscious about how many times a day/week/month I felt bad because I was letting down my kids/husband/friends/neighbours/community/the world in general and it was a lot. So I quit for Lent and have never been that guilt-ridden [...]