That’s the only way I can describe how I feel right now. I know there is only a tiny chance that I will get bad news at my appointment on Thursday – and yet I feel as though I’m walking towards a starting line and that things are going to be different on the other side.
The overall effect has been the need for super-strength willpower to avoid eating as though “rules don’t apply” this side of the line.
Happily, the husband is coming home from his week away and I’m going to ask him to help me with the willpower thing. He mentioned on the phone how much he’d like to be back in shape and we’re quite a team when we both decide to have the same goal.
One of the results of this “on the other side” phase of my life is that I’ve made several resolutions for when I get past that line and most of them are based on the promise to myself to be more assertive and less concerned that people like me. Among other things, I plan to:
- get rid of about 100 or so facebook “friends” – people with whom I have little past or present.
- get more proactive in my business and conquer my fear of appearing too demanding. First goal is to draw a line under a proposal that has been stalled for too long. It’s time to move on.
- make a practical plan for pursuing dreams NOW and not when we have more money. It’s time for change and time for living.
There are more but those are the ones I keep coming back to. Interesting that nowhere do I mention body/food sanity. That’s because that goal is in process and will continue.
Off to work.
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