So.
Did I have enough calories for eating what I ate yesterday? Yes – with lots left over.
Did I binge? Nope – bingeing doesn’t happen often anymore.
Was I stuffed full? No.
Was I happy with my eating? Sadly, no.
In a normal “diet” just scraping by with the right numbers is fine. However, in the battle for food/body sanity, there are a couple of mindsets that still bother me and yesterday I fought one of them all day.
It was the, “I really want to do this but I’m going away so it’s going to be difficult so I might as well blow it today so blowing it tomorrow doesn’t ruin a nice break” mindset – or, slightly more pithy: “the sabotage now and avoid the rush” mindset.
It’s an old one and at least I know when it’s happening but it’s a mighty strong current which drags me towards more food and drink than I need. If I wasn’t battling to work hard and take off these last 10 pounds, then I suppose there would be no such thing. You can’t sabotage normal, can you?
But I’m under no illusion that I’m eating normally right now. I’m eating to lose weight while not making myself a social outcast and that’s a narrow road to walk.
So I survived yesterday but battled and battled and battled. I had also banked enough calories to allow myself a nice dinner out but have slightly dented that balance.
This has got to be short as there’s lots to do before we hit the road. I’ll report back on Days 5 and 6.
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