I’m sagging a little beneath the weight of the crises of the people around me. What I thought was going to be some time “away” has turned into time “sharing the burden” with the nearest and the dearest. And for me, a melt-down once removed is still a melt-down. However – the day following the [...]
27Apr10
Back to Baby Steps
This is my third evening without TV, and my second officially back on WW. So far, it feels good. I cooked tonight, chicken/peppers/bulgur w/ EVOO & caramelized balsamic, and made enough for 4 meals. That’s in the fridge. Last night, I made a huge kettle of my favorite soup. I like it enough that I [...]
It occurs to me that I have been struggling with my weight since I was 14. At that time, I weighed exactly 135 pounds at 5′ 7″. And I was convinced that I was SO fat. Not in the anorexic “never eat anything” way, but in the “crazy fad diet” way. And we made most [...]
12Apr10
News for Now
The Doc called me while I was having lunch with the husband in the pub. Apparently he took my case to his group of cronies and they think it’s all benign so we’ll just watch and scan once in a while. I can live with that for now though I still might get a second [...]
11Apr10
Crazy Days
I’ve been thinking of various ways to describe a crazy person and my favourite by far is the beautifully British, mad as a box of frogs. Pretty descriptive of my past few days. I’m only writing today because I seem to have found myself in a period of calm. I’m glad that I have an [...]
9Apr10
Happy Weight Gain
OK – so I’ve eaten without really thinking for the past few days and my weight has come back up. It’s very odd to find this a happy event but it is. When I lost 2lbs in the course of all the Easter Feasting, I panicked a little that I was really sick. In the [...]
7Apr10
Taking Control
After four months of appointments, blood tests and scans of the expensive kind, I’m no closer to understanding what I’ve got than when my GP sent me my ultrasound report. So on Tuesday I decided to take more control of my situation. I wrote a letter with all my unanswered questions to the consultant and [...]
5Apr10
Binge Eating
I read an article recently on CNN that talked about how binge eating can be overcome by self-help techniques. The article discussed how a group of people used techniques in a book called Overcoming Binge Eating by Dr. Christopher G. Fairburn to help lose the weight they wanted and stop their bad eating habits. So [...]
5Apr10
Living in Limbo
So I went back to the specialist and it was the most frustrating appointment of my life. He hadn’t yet read the results of my mri. The appointment was for the sole purpose of getting the results of my mri. He did a rather bad job of NOT telling me what they said as he [...]
I recently read an article in O magazine about a book by Geneen Roth called Women, Food and God. The book talks about finding the reasons why we eat, not a particularly new concept. After all, practically every book about weight loss talks about finding the reason why we eat. Every time I read an [...]