I’m descended, on my father’s side, from a long line of cynics. I’m pretty sure that somewhere I could find a family plaque with the motto, “Don’t get your hopes up.” It’s not that I can’t see that the glass is half-full. I see it – I can even say it. But I’m secretly looking [...]
28Jan10
Positive Thinking
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Posted in Things to try, Thoughts on the Process
Tagged positive thinking and weight loss
Tagged positive thinking and weight loss
18Dec09
Checking In
It’s not as though I haven’t been thinking tons about what I’m doing and not doing – but the actual act of writing it all down has got lost in the tinsel, gingerbread and shopping lists. I’ve put on two pounds which may or may not be “real”. I need vegetables but can’t find them [...]
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Tagged diet planning, stress and eating
Tagged diet planning, stress and eating
I unintentionally started an attitude adjustment thread on BCB, and thought I’d share it here too. I’m struggling with having to adjust my budget to include an 80 mile round trip commute daily, that doesn’t fit into my current budget. I’m also struggling with all the previous issues: food, spending, lack of exercise. And when [...]
1Dec09
The Weight List
For the past six weeks, I been weighing myself every morning and writing down the numbers. I am not doing this expecting to see loss after loss after loss. I’m doing it because I really want to get to grips with how the actually shedding of pounds works. I think I’m going to make it [...]
23Nov09
Forgiving the Fat Child 2
Yesterday’s activity wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. I took it to the gym with me and tried to picture myself every year from the age of 6 or so and walk through a painful fat moment from around that time. Then I looked my young self in the eye and told [...]
17Nov09
Hormone Week Day 1
When I’m very hormonal, the emotional side of life ends up overblown and distorted – like looking at myself and all of life in a fairground mirror. Any situation that could possibly be decided by a win or a loss feels hugely stressful when normally I’m a happily competitive person – especially when competing against [...]
16Nov09
Hormones & Weight Loss
It’s hormone week in Millie World. My first clue was how much and how often I’ve wanted to eat over the past 48 hours. This is week it seems easiest just to give in, take a break and face the scales philosophically next Saturday. But this journey is about doing something other than what I’d [...]
12Nov09
Is it a Wall or a Milestone?
Onederland Stone Zone I’m bilingual when it comes to weight. I’m also aware that everyone seems to have a Wall Weight – that number that is particularly difficult to get past. For North Americans it tends to be a number ending in zero or 5. For the UK weight watchers it’s a number divisible by [...]
1Nov09
I’m trying something new
I’m starting a journal today. I’m going to try to write something every day and I’m going to try to make note of my feelings. An honest note of my feelings. That’s why I’m going to keep my journal to myself, if I post it out somewhere then there will be too much temptation to [...]
19Oct09
Unsettled-ness & Eating
The past 13 months of my life have been the least settled of my life. With Mom’s accident in September, Dad’s death in January then the consequent disrupted life of a couple of months here in the UK and a few weeks there in Canada, I feel completely unsettled. Add into the mix, the husband’s [...]