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One year ago I weighed a couple of pounds less than I do today.

And in case you don’t think today is special – it’s the day I noticed the linen trousers in the grocery store. Actually – the ones I’m talking about are linen & cotton blend.  They have a bit of structure and they wash well.

But I can’t remember whether I bought regular or long so I decided to try them on and grabbed the two size 12s (US 8s) off the rack.  They are BAGGY.  And, no, this doesn’t make me smile; it makes me furious.  We’ve got a country getting fatter and fatter and fatter and the people are thinking that they’re not getting bigger because they’re still wearing the same size.

It’s particularly a problem with the cheap stores and you can’t getter cheaper than buying clothes with your milk and bread.  But still.  It’s misleading and dishonest and wrong.  Oh sorry – it’s marketing.

I don’t really know why this particular marketing pisses me off so much – I guess because it actually hurts people in the same but opposite way that airbrushing models hurts people.  People with a history of obesity just don’t need any more help with distorted body images.

There’s got to be something between the unrealistic expectations of the media and the lies of the clothing marketers.

Grrr.  Wish I had a creative solution.

 
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I’m thinking that my life’s work should be to discover an antidote to the phrase “I feel fat”.

I know that even skinny girls “feel fat” once in a while. I know that weight/body/food strugglers feel fat (and feel thin) all the time – regardless of available evidence.

These past couple of weeks for me were a storm of virus, hormones, travelling, work stress and health worry. The virus stopped me exercising and the rest made for some chaotic eating. The result was that I “felt fat” and even watched the scales start to creep up to the point that I didn’t want to stand on them.

Because, you know, if you don’t weight yourself then the weight hasn’t changed.

If I had kept up the daily weighing, I would have seen the weight come down too but I let my “I feel fat” head rule for days. Then, yesterday before the MRI, I had to get weighed.

I’m happy to report that I don’t care about situations like that any more but I do guess what the number will be and I was thinking 153lbs because, well, I was “feeling fat”. Anyway – fully clothed, in the middle of the day, I weighed 148lbs. Absolutely fine, normal and not “fat”. Really. I need a brain transplant.

So I stepped on the scale this morning and all is well. I still have 9 days in which to NOT eat my worry about the results of the MRI but I’m so pleased to be starting from normal and not some silly imagined inflated weight.

And I still need to figure out an alternative to “feeling” when it comes to body image.

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